Day 609—How I
use my hot flash to support myself 2
My
observations
Then I
gradually found sometimes this depression burst becoming the very first part of
my hot flash, well perhaps it’s always is but I didn’t notice that because in
the beginning the hot flash was not so matured and strong enough. Then I wanted
to just stop it like those successful situations but found I actually cannot
stop it and had to wait until the whole body heat walked its own period. Since I
had walked my process and become more aware of my body, I decided to observe it
closer and took notes about the occurrences.
I started to
note down every occurrence of the hot flash, includes the time, the
environment, the duration, and the intensity, and it’s about a dozen times a
day and a couple of times at night and it would wake me up now and then, and it
sometimes strong and long but sometimes weak and short, however, I didn’t found
the connection with the environment except the hot temperature but had this
feeling that it might has something to do with what I am thinking, but for me
those things happened in my head are the memories of old things, new ones, plans,
coming and going one after one as usual, which are things so familiar to me
within which I didn’t clearly see emotions that caught my attention, therefore
are there really a clear connections between them and the hot flash? how can I
see the connections?
During that
time another thing happened to my body which is my old stomach ulcer problem backing
again, and it is the feeling that my stomach would feel a big chunk of something
there stuffed in the middle of my body and suffered more during digesting
process and all I know is that it has something to do with a period time of hard
working during which I maintained a certain level of anxiety.
Thus I found
there are at least 3 different kinds of initial points to start a hot flash at
that stage:
1.
A burst
of strong depression feeling occurred in the middle of my head region within
which I can sense a heated rusty choking smell thing gush in from behind my
nose and eyes area and then into the whole head, neck and upper buddy area
2.
A burst
of strong heat and painful feeling emerge from the middle of my stomach area
and slowly up to the upper body area
3.
The plain
heat feeling slowly sneaky out of somewhere of my body and then eventually
cover my upper and other area of my body
And within
these observations I found the hot flash/hormone seemed to has its own live and
will and would exaggerate and centralize my emotion and body problem I already have
within me for a long time and that had manifested within the interaction of
events and my mind system during that stage, and also they would had something
do to with the hormone state.
I then talked
about this situation with my buddy who supports me in my DIP process, she
suggested me to find the mind source of my hormone through kinesiology within
which we can use the professional’s muscle testing to know about things in the
physical level which myself cannot access yet. At this moment I realize this is
exactly where I can find the answers, so I scheduled a session right away.
To be continue……
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