Day 623—things that changed easily
As I am changing myself in real time in
this process while been taken over through the mind pattern, I found a
situation that is within those things seemed easily to change, and after I
thought I had made a correction and walked out of the pattern and then
experienced several times of the similar situation, for example the same
picture and inner conversation, then I told myself what I have been realized,
and I put it down, thought it had been changed and alright, but then afterwards
because of the triggering from another similar stimulus, I found the same
energetic manifested pattern became even harder to transcend, so I have to use
more longer time to face and deal with the situation. Now I would like to
illustrate about how it goes this way a bit.
Firstly, when a pattern showed up, I thought
I had done all the relevant deconstruction through writing , however I still
neglected another layer of the structure. For example, when someone A talked to
me about how B had achieved something, I felt uncomfortable and at the moment I
saw this is because I compared myself to B and created the competition and thus
that was the jealousy construct, thus I went deal with all that construct
towards B as possible. However after the dealing the same picture of A talking
to me is still coming up with the negative energy, then I believed I had done
forgiveness and thus I could release the energy more easily and yes it seemed I
did, but after several times of doing this, I found the next time when A came
to me and talked about the similar thing of B again, then I found more energy
coming and even faster and I could just react right away towards A. Then after
that I finally found I had also created hostility towards A for what A did to
me but didn’t find it and thus never deal with that before.
Thus from here I know when the patterns and
points I thought was deconstructed thoroughly coming up again, I could have
seen it earlier that if there is any other layers that didn’t deal with,
because the part hadn’t been dealt with is getting more energy within itself
and waiting for the personality reaction to be triggered.
Also I observed when a patter or point has
been deconstructed, though there would be still some memories and pictures
coming up through the triggering by the similar stimuli, there won’t be much
energy charge within it, and it won’t coming up so often within a short period
of time, and won’t make me to be aware and find it only in a relatively latter time,
therefore when the memory shows up too frequently and not so easy to be
detected, it means there are some layers that I haven’t dealt with yet.
And, when I made myself stayed in some
memory and then noticed the pattern then stopped I need to be aware that the
energy dimension been released too, since if I thought it can be stopped and
changed easily then it would be fine, but there is still energy suppressed
within the body, I probably just shifted my attention instead of completely
released the pattern or point, so it can be accumulated and would become a
bigger reaction from some other stimulus or trigger points in the future.
So these are some observations in relation
to real time change to remind myself and the final thing I know is no matter what
other situation that would cause the real time change not so effective, I should
just keep going to correct and change.
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