Day 617—A Suppression Analysis

Day 617—A Suppression Analysis

                                   

Since not long ago I found I can really stop myself to participate in a deep seated design of a mind construct with a close relationship of my family within awareness, and so within this transcending process I could see more details of dimensions from the suppression of myself.

In that moment when the family member were making some expression which I would always react internally or externally, however after a decision and application to thoroughly deconstruct it, this time as I saw the similar expression beside me happening, I stood within my body and watch the whole thing, but nothing happened within, and the event was still going, and I was still breathing, and then decide there is no need to respond but still listening, and I check myself within, found I just stopped there, without any suppression, and this is the moment I realize what is a real stop without suppression. It seemed that I could realize everything in a quantum moment and thus knew well there is no need to go any further.

Therefore within this process I observed how my suppression could be happened in about 5 levels of the mind reaction layers. The first layer is the value and judgment from the interpretation, blaming, projection towards others, for example: “he should not say something like that within his anxiety and lacking of information, which would make people feeling uncomfortable”. The second layer would be some mind constructs of self-victimization and self-judgment etc., like I had been feeling bad and judging myself in the similar circumstances and so reacted to the memories, experiences, pictures, conclusions and so on, for example: a picture with of this person yelling at me and I stood there feeling scary.

Then the next level would be the judgment and reaction towards the previous 2 reactions, it became the suppression of the mind reaction through the knowledge and information. For example, “I should not produce this reaction of blaming others and connect the past memory and experience”.

The forth level is when the moment I found I had constricted myself, then further again, to judge and react to this constriction reaction, believing that I should not suppress myself, and within this I would make a misconception as conclusion that I should not suppress myself in any way whatsoever, I should let it all out, otherwise I was producing more of the mind energy accumulating on my body. It as a misconception because this is still a value system with energy, meanwhile we don’t want to let the emotion go as it is as the personality pattern, but to stand within the emotional energy to transcend the energy, so I can express myself about the process clearly within communication. For example, I am not going to manifest the anger and blaming others, but to back to the breathing and stop the inner process, then I can explain to others how I feel within myself about what happened and what is that all about. Of course there are other options like I could note it down to deal with them afterwards depending on the situation. However as long as I didn’t deconstruct the mind pattern or at the moment create myself in the physicality, it would be more or less in a way and an extent of suppression, if you will.

The fifth level is coming from the misunderstood interpretation on the last level, because within it I have seen if I just let go of my emotions as they are there would be consequences, therefore I just jump into an ideal solution model as I believed no matter what, and still it is the manifestation of value and energy within the knowledge and information. For instance, I right away respond to and support the other, however though the correction itself looked perfect, but it actually became an over-reaction and in fact suppressed the previous inner process, the reaction could be so fast to not allow myself to see clearly what was inside the process, but still could feel the pressure within the body and causing consequence within.

The first 2 levels of the mind pattern are always go together, unless to really stop or deal with or change them right the moment as it happens, otherwise the suppression took the place, sometimes it stayed on the third or fourth level or even went to the fifth level like I was going through, and from there I could see how I just automatically accumulate the mind pattern through all the knowledge and value and judgment mind system instead of really live those as living words and so suppress myself layer after layer and leave the consequence to my body.

After that time I had stopped the deep seated mind pattern attached to the family member, I could in afterwards when I was facing a similar situation, at the moment as the external stimuli set off to be aware of any little movement and right away stop myself within breathing, and leave myself enough space and time to practically respond to the situation which would be best for everyone. And from my experiences the external stimuli as the mind trigger point would be eventually not a point anymore.

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Day 614—How I use my hot flash to support myself 7

Day 614—How I use my hot flash to support myself 7

Parallel process

One thing that I reveal for myself within the process is that there are actually multiple processes we can move ourselves in a parallel way as possible.

Sometimes before I watched people busy on looking for the mind source for a body condition then I had this question coming up that why bother to find the sources of body symptoms, because they can be everything from multiple dimensions of mind system and through walking the process we are going to deconstruct everything after all! At the same time I was actually lacking this experience and confidence to deal with those old symptoms and body pains, I was too familiar with them already as consequence for so many decades, and it seemed I can still get along with them “so far so good”, and the sources of the conditions are such “huge issues”, can I really manage those issues after I got something about them? Thus I did not see that a path as an option for me. However, providing myself enough information and time to work with myself, now I see it actually can be a parallel process.

In the stage of the observation from my hot flashes, I had seen that within the days indulging myself with full of thoughts, the symptom would be more serious than the days I had much less mind activities. Thus, yes, if I can just stop everything, things would become much easier. So, then, obviously I didn’t just stop the mind activities effectively on daily basis. Except my own responsibility for the mind functions, I realized it still needs a process to allow myself some more experiences as applications, feedback, evidences, cross references, then the confidence from those experiences and also more of the clarification from information and the relations between things, until I went to this point that I was ready to conduct something more.

Then now with some more experiences and confidence through my process, and with all the information and clarification in relation to my hot flash, I came to the point to see and realize this is where I am ready for facing this body consequence to assist myself, I saw the symptoms can be served as immediate feedback for how I could effectively stop my personality patterns on daily basis, so I then applied everything I learned and obtained from everywhere to solve problems for myself. As I can really see how I practically change myself to diminish the symptom, I realize this practice actually supports my entire process.

I know it is not I must need such body conditions to support myself, nor should I wait until something become serious and unbearable then I found I must do something about it, actually as adults we all had something or another on the body to remind us what we had done to ourselves, and thus can through the symptoms to walk the process even faster, and from common sense we know it would take longer to change if overlook what has been manifested on body, thus even the mild body conditions can always reminds us to discipline ourselves more.

Further, with the fact that some long-term bodily consequence were formed through time, we might not terminate them so effectively in a short period of time, like now I am on the way cease the hot flash by using hormone treatment, it then would no longer become the feedback for how I deal with the relationships and other things, thus what always there support myself is the ordinary process I am constantly walking. Therefore we actually need parallel processes, as the matter of fact, in this process there has been evolved multiple parallel processes together at the same period of time and they certainly can assist and support each other.

To be continue…

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Day 610—How I use my hot flash to support myself 3

Day 610—How I use my hot flash to support myself 3

Kinesiology  

In the session of Kinesiology the Kinesiologist told me that in relation to my hormone problem, what tested out was that mostly it has something to do with my internal conversation in relation to a specific person which is my father, and those backchats towards and in relation to my father are charged with positive feelings as well as negative emotions and those emotions also been tested out is insensitive, reserved, weary, cold, uncaring and unresponsive, which already become my own emotions patterns through copying and learning from and with my father to protect myself as a protection mechanism and those are located in the mind level of subconscious, unconscious, quantum mind, quantum physical.

Within the session I also crossed reference and clarified some other questions related to hot flash and thus I knew the intensity and duration would be influenced by the level of what is going on in the mind that I am participating and believing in my backchat. And I also confirmed the royal jelly and exercise is helping, also I can massage my foot to ground myself, and I got some suggestions of EQAFE interviews to support my process.

I was quite astonished and excited to know all these information at once, and with the backchat in relation to my father I recalled not long ago I had a thought about he didn’t response to my recent sickness with a slight of those emotions attached to it and also some memories of my childhood, however I actually dealt with the major conflicts and emotions towards my father in my teenage years and that had made us quite in an equal communicated relationship for a long time already.

Then I realized, yes, those emotions and personalities has become me already, and that belongs to one of my major personalities and for recent two years since I am actively making friends and finding potential partners and which is quite an emotional process…, so obviously, I had applied those mind patterns to those potential partner relationships, it could be the reason my hot flash was getting serious and it is clear that I still had quite some mind patterns need to face and to stop the relevant thoughts and memories and thus solve problems with my relationship and my body conditions.

Now I got the names and clues of emotions related to my relationships and personalities which manifested as the backchat in the mind, so every time when the hot flash coming, I can be more easily aware of and trace back to the internal conversations and imaginations in my mind that had things to do with the emotions and relationship personalities.

It is quite an interesting journey for me to investigate and analyze all the connections and sources, and I also in the end of a day wrote down the memories I can assess to those thoughts and emotions, and within the realization I deconstruct and do self-forgiveness and commit myself to stop those internal conversation towards those relationships. Since I had dealt with my relationships for years, it is now more easy and effective, although there are still some of the hot flash that I don’t have clear clue where they are coming from, however merely doing this part had already reduced some of the occurrences, so the hot flash pattern everyday new become the immediate feedback point for how effective I can dealt with and stop the relationship patterns.

To be continue……

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